I decided to write this particular blog today, because it’s a question I’ve been asking myself lately. Social media isn’t a core source of my daily stress, but it is definitely something that gets under my skin from time to time (which I think happens with everyone).
I’m sitting at a happy, roughy 1,200 followers on Instagram and for a while I was so content with that. I never had aspirations for more, because the audience I currently have is so loving and invested. Which in this day and age is hard to acknowledge sometimes.
I remember a couple months ago, there was a day when only 100 people read my blog. It was about 10 o’clock at night, and I was checking my daily website stats and 100 people had came to visit today. At first, I was upset, and eternally contemplated ways on how I could be doing better. But as the day went on, I took a step back and was like… what. That’s 100 people! One. Hundred. People. read my blog today. When I was in highschool, if someone would have told me 100 people read something I posted on the internet, I would have been totally exstatic. 100 human beings! That’s amazing,
But the pressures of social media like to tell us that unless we’re over 10,000 followers or 40,000 website visits, then we’re just not that important.
So that brings me to my question…
Am I interesting enough?
Well, I think I am.
Just because I don’t sponsor my posts, or tag every ‘feature Instagram account’ in all my pictures doesn’t mean I’m not worth looking at it, or my content isn’t worth reading.
Just because I don’t buy new oufits all the time, and immediately post a picture in them, doesn’t mean I don’t have interesting content, advice, or creations to share.
I have a moment every month where I question what I’m doing. And I think to myself, ‘am I being smart?’. ‘Am I really doing everything I can to get people to read my content and see my creations?’ And I ponder putting money into my content, or adding more hashtags, or taking that teeth whitening offer someone dmed me about.
But I always stop myself, because it doesn’t feel right. It doesn’t make me feel good inside.
And I’m not going to do something that makes me feel uncomrtable when I really am comfortable with the following that I have, and the loving family of followers I have. My Island of Misfit Toys.
Social media is hard. I never wanted this gigantic following that liked all my pictures. I just knew I loved writing, and I loved sharing, and I want to share those things with other people.
Exposure is good, and exposure is beneficial, but don’t let it consume you.
So for all of you out there who are letting social media make you question if you’re interesting enough, or pretty enough, or own enough pretty things… stop.
You are interesting, you are fantastic, and you are putting yourself out there. And that’s more of an effort than a lot of people are making.
Part of me is also writing this so I have something to look back on whenever I feel bullied or knocked over by social media. So excuse my selfishness and love me anyways.
I particularly wanted to take this time to thank all of the people who have been following me along the way. I’m glad I could share my thoughts, interests,passions and my life with you on a weekly basis. Please never stop messaging me, please never stop sharing your Disney faves with me, please never stop showing me your Halloween make-up, please never stop asking for advice.
I don’t know what the future holds, but today I’m finding reasons to be happy and I think that’s okay.
Sending you love and light where ever you are,